The days leading up to mother's day...

Mother's day is this sunday....and i am not looking forward to being reminded of all the mother's who are blessed with their children...I almost feel bad, like im being unreasonable almost. Its more jealousy i guess, thinking about how they all still have their babies and i dont. its just not fair. but i try not to think like that. I dont want to be angry and negative. Its just so hard, especially at work, this week. Seeing all the cards and gifts for mothers day that people are buying and all the happy mothers day decorations around the store, of course on top of always seeing babies and children, but im "used to" that (as much as ill ever be i think). See alot of people think only about the obvious getting to me...seeing babies around his age or babies crying, but you'd be surprised that older toddlers or pregnant women get to me too. I see older toddlers and think of what he would have and should have been and it tears me apart. I miss not only who he was but who he was going to be too. And pregnant women...oh my...they hit me pretty hard, maybe its because that where we first met with our Michael or maybe its the sadness of not having my own baby anymore. everyone keeps telling me that i need to always remember that i am still a mother and i know that is true its just hard to feel like a mother when your child is in heaven... TO all of you mother's out there reading this...I hope you have a special mother's day, and always remember how precious life really is...never take anything for granite and always cherish your children! <3