today is easter

Im feeling very bitter this morning as all i can think about is what we SHOULD have been doing today.... egg hunts, and easter bunnies...

This would have been Michael's real first easter (he was only like 2 or 3 weeks old last year) and we had talked about the easter egg hunting we would do and the little outfit we would pick out for him to wear and getting his picture done with the easter bunny... It pains me.

It makes me not want to ever celebrate holidays again, knowing that my little baby wont be there to enjoy it.

I do not like feeling so angry or bitter but it is hard not to sometimes.

we love you all and thank you all for all your support, we couldnt have done any of this without you all <3